Travelogue of US RoadTrip - Part 11 (St. Louis, Mo.)

It is time for me to return to New Mexico and California and I feel that little sadness that this trip of a lifetime is nearly over. Come on Thomas......and then a week at home in Big Sur, and then an Esalen weekend and then Europe for 10 weeks with 3 retreats starting July 26. But still, there is an aloneness on this trip that I am just loving, and even returning to my campsite at Canyon de Jemez feels so perfect.

This thing of saying goodbye until the next time..... I feel so sad to leave this place I could call home. Also the dynamic of ”I could really live here again” and to know this is really true for me. In reality, I’m here in St. Louis for 2 months total in 2010 when added up together and I feel so grateful to have this deep connection with the place where I was born and grew up. I started coming back to St. Louis with regularity say in 1993 or 4 and over the years developed a very strong relationship with the yoga family of St. Louis. So having my blood family and yoga family in St. Louis means I'm always super busy seeing friends and relatives, taking classes and teaching classes, and just Being in this great place on the planet.

I feel very at ease with my roots and family of origin and at peace with the choices I’ve made in life. This has been a process in the last few years, really challenging at times, where I’ve been looking deeply at the decisions I’ve made and the direction I have taken. I’ve taken stock of what I have and don’t have and am in a place of accepting myself where I’m at. Maybe this re-evaluation happens several times in our lives, where we really look and see who we are, and accepting this, we move forward one more time. I feel so deeply grounded to see and accept who I am, and the reality of my life.